抉择

进入大学至今，常常面临着需要抉择的事情。
佛学班，是我在马大的心灵寄托。可是，宿舍的活动却常常与佛学班撞期。常常我都会挣扎，我到底要上佛学班还是要留在宿舍参与活动？抉择让人觉得痛苦，两样都是重要的事，却偏偏要我牺牲其一，很难。。。真的很难。。。一个是让我早找个心灵归属感的地方，一个是让我明年能留在宿舍的活动，要我如何抉择？雪华告诉过我，进入马大，你必须学会抉择。选择你想要的，与此同时又能学到东西的。
刚刚完成妙喜组的面试，很想进入妙喜组，希望能从中学习更多，能与人分享佛法的喜悦。但，往往宿舍的活动让我无法出席佛学班，而佛学班，是我在马大的学佛空间。我又该如何抉择？下个星期，佛学班又跟我的宿舍活动撞期了。真令人讨厌和烦恼。
今天，我回家了。到安顺时，因为妈妈必须上课，有没有人载我，所以，我只好从车站走路到妈妈的学校拿车。到达学校时，从前我教过的学生一窝蜂似的冲上前来，不停地叫：“陈老师”。很开心，相隔这么久，他们还记得我。这也就是我喜欢当老师的原因之一。爱上老师这一个行业，是我从学生们的身上所得到的满足感开始。看见学生们学到东西，又能运用于生活上，让我觉得无比自豪。就代表，我会教，才能让他们铭记于心。这种成就感，是金钱所买不到的。每当我回到学校，老师们都会说，哇，大明星回来了。为什么呢？因为学生们都会冲上前来，包围着我。无论什么时候，都会如此。我不是吹牛哦！是真的。听到学生们一声一声地叫陈老师时，我是多么的开心和有满足感。我爱小孩，我爱我的学生，他们永远都是可爱的。有senior说我是因为小孩子好欺负，所以才会选择教书。他是大错特错了。哈哈。。。若有一天，能的话，尝试一下，你就会知道哪一种喜悦。
love,
恺慈

rain ..rain..rain..

Raining non stop these two days....so sad...my sport shoe got wet...hv tried to use hair-dryer to dry it,but it doesn't work much on it....so geram...
today,when i went to pass up my Kemahiran Maklumat assignment in the library,once i stepped out from our college,raining dogs and cats....sigh..it became heavier and heavier....at last,when i reached library,my jeans all wet...and it was 4.55pm..the assignment have to send up before 5pm.luckily,i managed to send in on time....phew....anyway,planned to go for the meeting of debate which will be held next week,i didn't go at last,as i was wet and i need to change my cloth as well,if not,i will surely catch cold...
so,i went back to the college with my friends...while walking,the rain is even heavier, and when the car passed by is even worse,the car will splashed the water towards us....gosh...already very wet,it's like adding oil on the fire...
lucky,today my college has water supply the whole day,but,i didn't use the toilet of my floor as there is someone so uncivilised and do her "big business" on the floor of the toilet...gosh..the smell ...yerk..so "geli"...and irritating....huh!!!!
assignment alot..4 assignments all together now....i have to rush and have to make it a success to do it...Gambateh kai chur...
love,
kaichur

No water again...

Hey...why like this????why we must so suffer??? huh!! this is the second day without water in my college...though it had its supply for a moment in the afternoon,it is not enough for all of us....i went to the faculty near my college to take bath today...feel so weird walking around other faculty with my pail and my bag of clothes..when i passed by, many people will say,eh..mandi ke...haiz...yaya..mandi..
just came back from NVC(National Vasity Counseling) interaction night....though got wet and my watch left there as i forgot to take it back,luckily,the seniors kept it for me....i enjoy my night....hope i can have a enjoyable and memorable experience working with all of them...Im in the bureu of Public Relation..Im talkative,so,guess it is not a hard job for me..haha...
it's 1.26am now..yet i need to stay alert and do my preparation for my presentation tomorrow...KaiChur Gambateh!!!...
love,
kaichur

人情。。。

进入马大，我欠下的不是一屁股的贷学金，而是，一身的人情债。金钱的债务，容易解决，人情债最难。。。

为何说我欠下很多人情债呢？从一开始，还未踏入马大前，就开始了。。。很幸运的，我被安排到其中一位朋友的朋友的宿舍，也因为这样，我就不停地烦她了（因为她是读matriks的，所以比我早一年进来），问她要穿什么、带什么等等的，总之，就是很烦啦。还好，她很好噢！不厌其烦的为我解答。谢谢你哦！会晶。

踏入马大后，很庆幸的，我进入了一间人情味十足的宿舍。马大第七宿舍Kolej Kediaman Za' Ba.这里，senior 都很nice...常常关心我们，所以，我的haluansiswa并不是过得很痛苦，比起其他人，我和幸福。哈哈！

后来，慢慢的，senior 们慢慢搬进来后，认识了很多很好很好的senior.也有很好很好的邻居。哈哈！电脑有问题，不是问题。。有senior帮忙。功课有问题，不是问题，也有senior会教你做。宿舍没有水，不能冲凉也不是问题，senior 也会在你出去冲凉。你看，哪里有啊？哈哈！你说，我是不是很幸运？

再来，我有两位很好的roomate。常常帮我做这做那，有时都不好意思。哈哈。。

哦！我还有很好很好的大手，（大手与小手是我们CC的一个活动，junior回写信给senior.但senior并不知道小手的真正身份。）我一共有十个大手。很多吧！都是我贪心，哈哈。。没有啦。有些是被逼写的，有些是我很喜欢的senior，有些是带我进马大佛学会的senior,那当然，有我真正的大手，还有一些是和我同乡的。哈哈。。。大手与小手相认的那一天，我收到了9份礼物。好开心。哈哈。。这些都是我的大手送给我的礼物，有些来不及拍照片。哈哈。。。很开心，有着这么好的一班大手。 谢谢你们！

love,

Kaichur

life in college after 1 week at home...

I miss my home actually,i couldn't slept well last night...
I woke up and slept...
When i stepped into college,and into my room,I felt so tired....
I started to clean my room..Swept,moped,then rearranged the things in my cupboard and my table...
It took me about 2 hours to have everything done....
Then,went out to have dinner with my coursemates and seniors...Mamak again..though i have a week not eating it..i still feel bored with it...I miss the food that my mommy cook,i miss the seaweed soup,i miss the mooncake..i miss my brother and sister who always making noise around and argue with me...i miss everything...
Anyway,Im big enough to overcome all this as I am a tough girl...I know it's just a moment for me to miss everything and everything will be fine soon....
KaiChur is tough girl..u can overcome it...i know....
love,
kaichur

Going back to UM lol...

well,time passed so fast..im going back to UM tomorrow....
No more sleep, eat and tv life...assignment is coming on...not finish yet...how am i going to finish it????i also don't know...
life in TI is so nice...everyday sleep,eat and TV..nth much..and pempered by my mom and my siblings...It's a suprise that my bro be the head prefect of the school..anyway, he did change a lot of his attitude...a good change indeed...so, im happy with it....well,i was being pampered in home,they will say" aiya, jie like to eat this,so buy lar"haha..that's why i gained weight now...haha....but,im glad that i have my family member here...they really love me and i love them too..
Well,this week is really a week of sleep...i din touch my books...i dont know how to finish my assignment and how to face my exam on monday..so hopefully,when i back to UM tomorrow,the time is enough for me to cover everything...
Ahem...what happened this week?i successfully managed my activity in a leadership camp in PErsatuan Buddhist Hilir Perak on last saturday...the effect is what i hope to get..thanks kooiling and hui san cause trusted me and let me carried out the activities...and on that day, i met with my old friends too...nice to meet with them again..haha..
then...nth much..oh ya,i just finished made some mooncake with my mom..haha...quite nice..bringing back for my seniors and my neighbours and friends in college..haha...but not much..so see who hv the chance lar..haha..but surely,my big hands will have..haha..
well,hope i can manage my thing lar..kinda worry now...
love,
kaichur

My midsem Break...

oh yes...finally, i have a short break for my hectic university life...im home now...nice feeling...
Last thursday, was the talent nite of my college's CC,it has been the 1st time i dance...haha..anyway,my seniors and my friends told me that i did a great job..and i guess,that's why i have been chosen as the princess of this year..haha..what a nice experience...i was so suprised when my name has been called...i was like just wake up from a sweet dream...haha...
well, that night is also the time we go n find out our big hand...well,big hand is the symbol of our senior as we are having a section of writing letter to senior and we are the small hands...we have to write them a letter without telling them who m i...so,on that nite,we have the chance to interact with them face to face and tell them the real identity..haha...well,i have written letter to 10 seniors and i have prepared present for them...and in return, i hv around 9 presents and a meal..haha..from my dearest seniors...thanks to all my big hands...i love those presents very much...especially the shit doll..haha...so suprise i got a shit..haha...i guess, thursday is the nite that i feel that is the most happy in UM...thx for juniors and seniors who had make the nite a success...
well,i came bek yesterday..it's kinda of tired...anyway,i will be back to UM on next friday...start to miss the time hanging out with my seniors at IS as we talk cramp there...haha..balia-ing there...nice...haha...
well, this mid sem break is full of assignments and homeworks...i will be very busy...hopefully i can finish my work before i go bek to UM...
i think I can...and im sure i can..
love,
kaichur

A "belated" birthday blog from me...haha

7th August...What is so special about this date? Ahem..it's my birthday! haha..well, this year is my 20th birthday, a lot of 1st time happened on this year...
1st of all, this is the 1st time i step into the world of 20th...i just told my friend, i have no longer teen teen lo...haha...know what i mean? guess u all know...
then, this is the 1st time i never celebrate my birthday with my family on time. WHY? because im in KL lol...Im not in TI,how to celebrate with them?haha...
and then, this is the 1st time i celebrate my birthday in UM..haha..it's a nice experience. It was also and unexpected one..because i never expected that my coursemates will remember my birthday and they will celebrate with me. I celebrate my birthday on 11.55pm 6 AUG..in IS with my coursemates,roomates and my seniors..it was such a nice experience to me as well,this is also the 1st time i listen 8 songs before i make my wish and blow my candles. WHY 8 songs? these 8 songs included --Negaraku, Lagu UM, Lagu Za'Ba, 7th CC song, Eng.birthday song, Chines birthday song, Malay birthday song and also cantonese birthday song...Wow...haha...it's really fun...though i almost being dump into the kolam, but my seniors were so good..they never dump me. THanks ya seniors....haha...nice to have a birthday with you all, i will remember it...
Next, this is the 1st time i celebrate my birthday in a sick condition. i was sick on that day as i have a severe sore throat and a bit fever. HOwever, after the celebration, it become better. after it,fever again..haha..
aha...not forget also, this is the 1st time i celebrate my birthday with free call...haha..maxis gave a whole day free calls package to all maxis line. i phoned all my friends indeed.haha...guess that day i used around RM30 to call all my friend and my ears almost burnt as talking too much and my mouth become so tired after that..haha..anyway, i enjoy it....
and this is the 1st ever birthday that met with the chinese "qi xi" means the valentines..though i dun have chance to celebrate it,im happy also..haha...
Well, i would like to thank all my friends there, Shin YEn, Fei Mian a.k.a FM, Zhong Weng, Phei Sze, Wei Yin, SIng Ee, Xin Hui, All the TESL-ian and all my seniors there...it's really nice...haha...thanks ..a thousand of thanks....
and also, all my friends, sin yee, peck geok,lay ying,jenqhorng,beesim,siewling,gan,chooyow,kwanyee,yee jie jie,rongsheng,itik,lisuan etc...thx a lot....I LOVE YOU ALL...thanks...
love,
kaichur