Why??

WHY?? can you tell me why??? Even though I have changed myself to make this a success, yet you said I changed to suit you is not the original me. I have tried my very best to maintain it..Why can't i make it? heart broken...WHY is it so?

I don't want to think of it anymore, yet it is haunted me day and night...
I don't want to cry, yet i am crying once I see the sky
I don't want sadness, yet it comes towards me...
I have to grow up, concentrate on my study and make my study my priority now.
I have to wake up and walk further towards my future
I have to stop thinking of the bastard, and go for the good
I have to grow stronger to fight against sadness
I have to take away the hatred and love myself more...
I have to...
I can do it...