气馁、伤心

气馁，
短短的两个字，
却有着深厚的意思。
要解释起来，
并不难，
也不容易。
今天，
我体会到气馁的感觉。
终于明白了。。。
那种心伤得很的感觉，
那种被挫折大大打击的伤痛，
我终于感受到了。
这一份奖学金，
我一定要得到。。。
他断定了我的前途
及我的钱途。。。
当我知道，
我连面试的机会也没有时，
心很疼。。。很疼。。。
妈妈期待我得到这份奖学金，
得到他，
能帮忙减轻她的负担，
也能确保我毕业后有份安定的工作，
这是她期许的。
可是，
我让她失望了。
对不起阿妈！
或许我进入大学后，
并没有再像以前那精进学佛，
也没念经回向，
更没有时时提醒自己从善，
还时时伤您的心。
或许这是一个因果循环的报应。
我欣然接受。
我要盖过！

Sushi Bonanza..nothing much...

I just back from Midvalley. I had had a quite happy day today.So nice...

First of all, Zhong Weng and I went to KPS to deal with some NVC stuff. However, it's faith that she has to go to KPS again tomorrow. She brought the wrong letter there. So, it's time to keep fit ya..Ooong..haha...Then we waited my daddy junhong and my new mummy, qinghui at the library. We took a taxi to the Midvalley at around 10.20a.m.

10.35a.m. Reached Midvalley and ran to the Sushi King.No people yet, so we went to buy the movie ticket first. Oh Yeah! finally i have the chance to watch the movie i long to watch for such a long time, that is Shinjuku Incident by Jackie Chan.

My Ticket--SHINJUKU INCIDENT...^^

Next, we had our lunch+breakfast in Sushi King...Oh Yes..Sushi BONANZA..what a so called bonanza,nothing much to eat. Maybe we were too early, 10.45a.m.. We were the second early customer there. So, we sat there, started with our one hour dine in time.

Yummy~~Sushi I love you...


My daddy~~Junhong


My new mummy, qinghui. What is she wandering ya?
Oh yes. This two fellows, fat d..but like to eat somemore..haha
This is waht i hope to eat for a long time but never eat.This is the first time i ate..YUMMY~~

These were what we ate..19 plates of sushi

After one hour of dine in time limet. We left Sushi King...

Oh..Sushi King..BYEBYE...

After that, we went to buy our stuff. We walked in two teams. Definitely, my daddy and new mummy surely walked in pair and zhong weng and i walked in pair. Zhong Weng and i went to buy our formal shirt. We went to Giordarno, Nichii, Romp, PDI, Padini...etc etc.. So many shops. We still couldn't find what we want. However, I managed to buy 4 pairs of ear rings with just RM 10. Haha.. I love the earrings. THey were nice. Oh yEs... i love it.

1.30p.m. Went into GSC. The cinema in Midvalley. Here the Shinjuku Incident started. I love Jackie Chan. I still remember i used to go to watch Jackie CHan's movie with my father when i was young. He love Jackie Chan. Thus, whenever there was any Jackie Chan new movie, He will surely bring me to the cinema and watch together. I enjoyed the time very much. However, I can't go to movie with my father anymore. He is not here anymore. I miss him. Whenever i watch any movie of Jackie Chan, i will have a very hard feeling. I still insist to watch it though i knew that i will have a bad feeling. I want to search the feeling when my father around me.

Shinjuku Incident. It is not same as what Jackie CHan used to do. His previous movie was funny and full of action which he conducted all the action by himself. This time he just did some part of the action. He died in the end of the story. Again, i think of my father. I felt the pain. Really. I know how it was the pain...I hate the pain.. I hate the pain that my father had. This movie is quite a cruel one. A lot of very very scary scene where i used my hand to cover my eyes and move my head towards zhong weng there. She was so steady. How good if i can be like her?haha..The movie has its own touching part too. I cried several times. This is the first time i cry when i watch Jackie Chan's movie. If i would rate this movie, i will give it 5 stars. It is really a great movie to watch.

After movie, after crying, we went to shop again. I have to accomplete my missions. They are buy a white formal shirt, buy a present for my friend, buy some daily stuff and buy a pair of new shoes. However, i managed to fulfill the first 3 things. I didn't buy a new pair of shoes for myself, couldn't find a nice one. haha^^

Then, we met with June and we came back to college. That is my day in Midvalley during study week. HOpefully after this i will put more effort in my study.

Study Study Study..JIA YOU KAICHUR!!!!!


I must do better and I can do it

Oh yeah...I need a break...

Wow..after a super duper pack life for the whole week where i have to deal with all the assignments and tests, finally, 5 hours more, i am going back to take a break.

Within this week, i have done a lot of things. First of all, i finished 2 final papers during this week. I don't know what is my marks and so on. But, i did enjoy my class as the class is ended. I feel glad when the ESL is finished. FINALLY!!!!then kinda of sad when prof.G's class is going to the end. I learned a lot from Prof. G...Prof. G and I . I will miss you a lot... Dr. Aini, my basic Philosophy lecturer,who gave me a piece of golden advice before she leave.

This two lecturers will be retired after this semester. I felt glad that I am their last batch of students. Both of them are so responsible and i love to go to their class. I learned a lot from them. Thanks for the advices and everything. sorry for my wrong doing too...

Last Saturday, after my assignment, a stage play, with Prof.G, shinyen, zhongweng, feimian and i went to have our lunch in OldTown white Coffee with our dearest Ah siong...It's a great outing where finally I can eat something nice...haha..

What is the difference between this two coffee?
My favourite, Hazelnut white coffee
Shin Yen so beria-ia with her honey lemon I am enjoying my coffee..yummy..

Aha..this is our handsome Mr.Bear..thanks for fetching us...

Zhong Weng with her mee....

This few days, i suddenly love to take my picture again...Started to be syok sendiri again..haha..share with u all some of my SS photo..

SS photo 1...looks like i slim d?but i gained weight..this call technique...haha
SS photo 2..without specs...
SS photo 3..with my lovely specs...seems like abit serious...

SS photo 4..this is what called a PIG

SS photo 5...i love this one..my friend said i look like a rabbit..haha

We just had our CC farewell at tuesday night..i was a touching one. Joseph gave me a handmade photo frame where he put the photo of him and i...Ah Siong too...gave me a present. I am glad to have such seniors. Not because of they give me presents..But they did help me a lot during my University life. WHenever i need help, what i need to do is just text message them. They will try their very best to help. I am glad that i am in 7th. I love you all.

*no photo for the farewell, as i am one of the ursher, so i cant take photo..so bad..

Will update more bout me later on..maybe after my exam...FINAL..GAMBATEH!!!

爸，我爱你

你是我最疼爱的孩子
你这样对我说
你是我最爱的爸爸
我从没对你说

怀念你的拥抱
怀念你的关怀
怀念你的温度
怀念你的笑容

爸爸 你在何方？
远方的您 可否看见
我的成就与成长

我亲爱的爸爸
感恩您 感谢您
辛勤工作 赚钱养家
让我们健康快乐成长

我亲爱的爸爸
我疼您 我爱您
努力向上 精进向善
是我报答您的承诺

Greetings after a long pause...

Hi everyone! Miss me? It had been a very long time i didn't upload my blog and update my news. Sorry for that as I was busy with my assignments, competition, presentations and also tests. Well, i have a lot of story that i would like to share with you all. Let me share by using photos.

First of all, NVC photo shooting session. I woke up at 6.22am that day. Walked to the place opposite DTC to take these photos..NICE? not sure...

Zhong Weng and I in our formal shirt. I gained weight again...

With yen..too tired after waiting for a very very very long time....

When is our turn to take photo?sleepyz....

Choir COmpetition. we got the 4th placing. Though disappointed, we deserved it. I know why. after choir competition, went to KFC and celebrate. NIce experience and thanks to all the seniors who worked hard to make our performance that day a very success one.

THis is my position as Alto I, beside me ZuDian(right), Lesley (left), PeckHar(behind)

With Mummy NaNa..the prettiest girl in 7th college

Everyone become crazy and take photo non stop.

San Yee, PoPo and Sam Kao Fu came to support me that night too. I was so happy to see my San yee. Miss her so much. Haha...The next day night i went to have dinner with my aunt and my cousin sisters.

Once the choir competition ended, i have an entrepreneurship Day the day after that. Our group own a stall named SPLENDID 46 and we sold sushi bread roll, Inai drawing, chinese craft and kacang. We earn money. nice experience...It is me, busy attracting custormers to my stall. the red colour shirt girl is Joanne..

My group members. SPLENDID 46

Inai drawing on my hand..nice..i love it..Thanks Sangi..

Ugly photo taken during ugly time in ugly place by ugly people....

After all, i have a super pack timetable where we have to come out with a play, then have to act out the play. This is a big project to me as i scored quite bad in my test. I have to earn my marks here to cover what i have lost.

Not forget also, to mention about the camp that i have attended during 27-29March in YBAM by the MiaoXi of PBUM. I was lucky enough to be selected as the one who take care of our honourable Reveren. This time, Rev. Ji Chi was the speaker. She is a great speaker. HOwever, i felt so sorry to her and guilty as i didn't pay much attention on the talk. Instead, i slept in class. I am so sorry, Rev.Ji Chi. THis world is real small, Wei Fong, my ex-neighbour,who is studying in USM currently, we wet each other in YBAM where she has another camp there too. We was so happy and excited. I miss her so much. haha..

Sorry, cause i don't have any photo of the camp to upload. haha..

love,

KaiChur

MAZ 2009

mr.bear n kaichur

daddy n i..Full look

daddy,jie n i..where is new mummy?

yen..the wheelchair girl n i

amy n i...

With Zhong Weng

My daddy, JunHong

Phew..finally i have time to upload my latest news. Well, was busy with my assignments and choir practice this few weeks. I just had my Malam Anugerah Za'Ba or more famously known as MAZ last friday night, that is on the 13th of March. It was a special night for all the people in my college. A very happening night. We had it in the Putra International Convensyen Centre. It is a very grand hall where big function are held. I love the place. Nice..

well, i did not have a very nice and attractive dress on that night. Well, due to my plump cute little body, i could not find any nice dress. So sad..it's really time for me to keep fit..haha...well, took a lot of photo that night..so who wish to view can view it in my facebook. See ya...will update more when i m free to do so..

Suei week

I am home now! Fu yOh! It’s really a great busy week for me last week. It was the week for our college grand project, Citrawarna Za’Ba. This is a big project where involved all the Za’Bahan. We have a lot of gerai along the road in Za’Ba, we have game station for the visitors, not forget also, we have Cultural night for 3 different races. We, as Chinese, were busy with the preparation of our Chinese cultural night. We had our practice and practice and practice for the Chinese Cultural Night.
Chinese Cultural Night (MKC)
Finally, the cultural night arrived. We prayed hard so that the night will be as smooth as possible and hope that that night will not rain. It was a great weather in the afternoon. We were so happy. We started to set up right after the Malam Kebudayaan India ended at 12am. We put up the back drops and all the tanglung of the surrounding But, I have just hurt my hand, so I am like a “orang Kurang Upaya”, seniors prohibited me from doing anything. So, I have just stand there and help to stepped on the wayer that they wanted to cut. Haiz…that is the only way I can done my part. Then, Ah xiong who knew that we are going to wake up at 5am to practice dance forced us to sleep. So, I have back to room at around 1am and slept. I woke up at 5.15am. I was late. However, we have expected, so everyone was late except for Mei Wan, ShuLIng, Li Ping and Chin Ling. Haha..however, we have practiced our dance and passed the stage to the “che ling” members. So, we went to sleep again. I slept until 11sth in the morning and started to do my assignment. Went to have our make up session at around 2pm. Then change our clothes and do our hair. So, around 4pm, we had set up everything, for the fan dancer only. The sky started to turn black in colour. We were so worry. We really hope that we could have our performance in Balai Za’Ba, thought we have plan B, that is when raining, we will do it at Dewan Nukleus. However, do it in Balai zaBa still our wishes. I prayed harder and harder and even asked help from my Buddhist friends. After rain for a while, it stopped. We were glad and smiles started to have on our faces. Everything set up, we started the programme. Our director, Mr.Kao Wei Xiang had his speech. Oh My God..his speech was full of laughter. Haha…I really “pui Fok” him. Though he is a banana, he is brave enough to speak in Chinese. I seclude you! Then we have our band performance, everything seems to go on well. However, suddenly, 1 drop of rain drop on my face, then the second and third and finally, it was raining cats and dogs. We have to bring the whole things to Dewan Nukleus. So, finally, we did it in Dewan nucleus. I had my dance on there. Both, the fan dance and the fire dance. Everything seems to go smooth there and we had our 24 season drums performance at blue court and multimedia presentation in the car park. Haha..Seniors said this is a very special cultural night where we have our performance in 4 different places. However, 1 very sad things happened, my best friend, Shin Yen was fell down during the performance and hurt her leg. I sent her to the hospital with Amy(who hurt her leg during practice too) before the whole show ended. She was very hurt and could not walk at all. Once we reached hospital, everyone looked at us. WHY??? We were so special. We haven’t clear our make-up and our hair as well. After registration, we went to wait in the consultation hall. This is my second time came to hospital in this week. OH MY GOD..wat a not unlucky week. I hate this week actually. We waited for a long time. Finally, it’s our turn. Shin Yen’s leg was quite seriously injured. Her bone was broken. So, she had to put on cement. She was so worry. She cried. However, she was very tough. Really tough. I seclude to her too. We had everything done in hospital at around 5am and lucky RongJie, Ah Yap, Eric and Kian seng came to fetch us. Thanks seniors. Then, reached college, accompanied Shin Yen wait for her father at IS. After sent her to her father’s car, I finally could take my bath and settle my thing. Finally, I slept at 8am. This is the earliest time I sleep.

Then, we had our test and assignments. For the whole week, I didn’t have enough sleep. I rushed my assignments until 4am. I was angry that those china students plagiarized and we have to re write our short story again on the spot. What the…I hate this. This is not the first time they plagiarized. Please lar..we were on the same boat but we put on our 100% efforts into the short story and need to do again. How angry I am? Huh!!! I almost kill people. Then, we have our test on Wednesday and shin yen has to come back due to that. However, it’s ok that there is a lot of people who help to take care of her. This is the first time I go to class by van. Haha…

I was very tired and very very very exhausted this week. However, I am glad that shin yen’s leg recovered…